When you wanted to kill yourself what held you back ?

i remember when my parents found out that i liked MCR and a lot of other stuff they freaked out and like took EVERYTHING away from me (i'm still grounded ) and they said some stuff about me ending up like my uncle and basically made me feel worthless so i downed the entire bottle of sleeping pills ... and later at the mall when i was watching my baby brother he just randomly hugged me and said "dita" and kissed me on the eye(lol) ... he used to call me dita but now he never does and i started crying and ran into the bathroom and made myself throw up all those pills... and whenever i think of suicide i remember my baby brother and my awesome friends !! and life seems worth it all of a sudden ...